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                     MATRIX2TECH

In reading Oprah's latest book selection I am overwhelmed with situations that I have had in the past. That "aha" awareness.. even of becoming aware of the incessant chatter in my head which I now recognize as my ego, my mind. I have been trying to discover my authentic self through rediscovering my likes and dislikes and only allowing myself those things which I truly need or with which I find internal joy.

I had to laugh at the description of an ego finding strength and superiority in having nothing. I am better than "them". I am not controlled by my things. I am identified with my austerity. As Eckhard explains the ego will find something to identify with even when you have relinquished or lost everything.

Prior to picking up this book, I was working on similar and parallel theories and techniques discovered in Wayne Dyer's 'There's A Spiritual Solution To Every Problem'. I think that is why I felt such exuberance. Here was someone else to help me in this journey.. this metamorphosis.

But, I am getting ahead of myself. Let me go back .. about 14 years. My first foray into rediscovering myself and looking inside myself started with my diagnosis of breast cancer. I was a single parent of a young child so it was devastating. Who would care for him if anything were to happen to me? I would pray every night that I would remain healthy and well at least until he reached an age where he could take over the job. Later, I began to try to see that who I was and my sense of myself as a woman was not my outer shell, my physical body. That was a difficult path. It is who we are inside that truly counts. It was not easy for me. I had so identified my value as a woman with my appearance and physical attributes. It was the way I was able to be noticed and therefore obtain valuation.

Just as the beginning chapters of the book describes our associating ourselves from a young age on our sexuality and it's